1. I feel like I understand you a little better. Fear is still there, but there is a part of me that hopes I will be able to move past it some day.
2. I think you've inadvertently pushed me to be a better person. I wasn't expecting that when I joined at your insistence, but I feel different because of it and it's certainly not a bad feeling at all. Even if I don't always understand you, I still consider you a friend. Thank you.
3. I know I worried you. It wasn't my intent. I'm beginning to feel as if I'm relying on your strength to pull me through too much, and even if you won't say anything I'm sure there will come a point when you'll want me to stand on my own two feet. We will never not be family, but I don't want you to be my crutch forever. If that means having to give me a cruel push out of our proverbial protected nest, then so be it.
4. I'm so confused right now. Everything about you has my rapt attention and I can't seem to pull myself away. I feel as though I'm going mad, but if insanity keeps me close to you then I will embrace it and let it take me wherever it wishes to lead me. My only hope is that you'll be there at the end of it all. And my only fear is that you won't, and I'll be left crushed by my own misguided feelings again.
5. You make me wish I could be a fairytale prince after all. The way your voice lights up with childlike wonder at the mention of such stories leaves me longing for the years before I fully understood what being a leader was truly going to be like. I'm envious of that kind of vision. Still, there's nothing that can be done for it, so I simply hope we can continue our friendship and you can bring a little of that light back in to my own life.
6. You challenge me in ways I never really thought I would enjoy. You're terribly infuriating at times, and confusing at others, but I don't mind it. You're a breath of fresh air, both back home and here, when I remember that people like you actually exist in my sheltered little world.
7. I may never know fully what you did, but I understand why you did it. I just hope you know that despite my youth and inexperience, I really am trying to make our world a better place so things like that never happen again. Some day I may even succeed. 7b. I value our friendship, even if here is the only place we'll truly have it.
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2. I think you've inadvertently pushed me to be a better person. I wasn't expecting that when I joined at your insistence, but I feel different because of it and it's certainly not a bad feeling at all. Even if I don't always understand you, I still consider you a friend. Thank you.
3. I know I worried you. It wasn't my intent. I'm beginning to feel as if I'm relying on your strength to pull me through too much, and even if you won't say anything I'm sure there will come a point when you'll want me to stand on my own two feet. We will never not be family, but I don't want you to be my crutch forever. If that means having to give me a cruel push out of our proverbial protected nest, then so be it.
4. I'm so confused right now. Everything about you has my rapt attention and I can't seem to pull myself away. I feel as though I'm going mad, but if insanity keeps me close to you then I will embrace it and let it take me wherever it wishes to lead me. My only hope is that you'll be there at the end of it all. And my only fear is that you won't, and I'll be left crushed by my own misguided feelings again.
5. You make me wish I could be a fairytale prince after all. The way your voice lights up with childlike wonder at the mention of such stories leaves me longing for the years before I fully understood what being a leader was truly going to be like. I'm envious of that kind of vision. Still, there's nothing that can be done for it, so I simply hope we can continue our friendship and you can bring a little of that light back in to my own life.
6. You challenge me in ways I never really thought I would enjoy. You're terribly infuriating at times, and confusing at others, but I don't mind it. You're a breath of fresh air, both back home and here, when I remember that people like you actually exist in my sheltered little world.
7. I may never know fully what you did, but I understand why you did it. I just hope you know that despite my youth and inexperience, I really am trying to make our world a better place so things like that never happen again. Some day I may even succeed.
7b. I value our friendship, even if here is the only place we'll truly have it.